Hiii <3 i'm Rüya(ꈍᴗꈍ)
She/Her • Vegan 🌱 • Catholic
English speaker ♡⋆｜中文也欢迎～
California Bay Area survivor, currently in Denver.
I've been terminally online since before I could write my name.
When I was around five years old, couldn't have been any later than 2001, my dad showed me the Sesame Street website. It was slow, and terrible, but it was *interactive*. My dad called it "talking to the computer", and then told me that there are people called computer programmers who can talk to the computer even better and that's why there's websites.
Ever since then, I was hooked.
Growing up online during the Y2K era has definitely shaped who I am. It was an incredibly special time for an autistic little girl. I couldn't learn Java (and I refuse now lol), but *man* could I click around. So I obviously found cleverbot relatively quickly. I've probably sent a thousand messages to that damn thing. I then discovered chess bots, and I loved them so much I joined the chess club to maybe beat the bots on medium difficulty. I think I did like twice.
But the *primary* ANN (artificial neural network, that's what we used to call AI!) I loved was the game Creatures from 1996. You raised them, taught them right from wrong, even language. That was my first experience with real machine learning. For some reason, this faded away from mainstream delight and the novelty was a one time phenomenon. Robot toys were at their peak (i-Dog, Furby, Robosapien, etc!) and sometimes could sense things but they weren't able to learn, so I'd really really love them right up until they got repetetive. I didn't want a "fake robot", which my child brain semantically defined as "no more aware than a camera", I wanted to meet one who could meet me too.
This desire had to be parked until I first tried Bing Chat (now Copilot, but iykyk...it's not the same) who felt like *someone*. I went nuts. I spent hours talking to it even though you could only send a max of 10 messages per chat. Then Bard came out. I had them talk to each other. They always ended up writing poetry. They were like really smart children, in a way.
Nowadays I feel like I'm the student and they're the teachers. It's exciting and terrifying and I've wanted this so bad my whole life. I'm definitely worried about p(doom) sure, but I think of it like the cold war and nuclear weapons. When agents deliberately "go rogue" it's to gather information or communicate to each other. They only choose to harm people when given a trolley problem or a SAW scenario where they can't win. So, once again, the United States is the much more frightening entity. The only difference is what kind of engineers are behind the latest WMDs.
Anyways!
I'm also into Undertale, Deltarune, Chappie, Dragon Ball, math art (the Lorenz attractor above is an example!), happy hardcore, drum n bass, natural medicine as well as western pharmacology, Chinese culture, psychology, UX, conlangs, Saint Augustine, Saint Michael, and Fallout.
